2024nov5 I can never shake the sense that it’s possible for me to do something I’ve never done before

There’s a spectrum of possibility here

I don’t believe for example that I will one day randomly be able to bench twice my bodyweight or run a 4 minute mile without training

But it is always possible for example to… try a new food, or go to a new location. those are maybe the easiest and “least consequential” possibilities, though I use quotes because you never really know what the potential consequence of such a new thing is. you go to a new cafe and you might meet your spouse or you might be visited with inspiration for your magnum opus

some things are in between those things. I suppose maybe it’s contingent on the amount of preparation you’ve done. Might be channeling the 4 kinds of luck here. 

The possibility I’m practically praying for is something like a great cascade through my work. The idea of finding some particular tangent, some angle from which everything feels fresh and exciting and sets off cascades

A new idea can sometimes do this, reinvigorate all the comparatively stale and dormant old ideas that become excited to meet the new guy. Babies do this to families and maybe even wider/larger social entities. Babies represent possibility