I used to be really ignorant, arrogant, narcissistic, self-absorbed and insensitive. You guys know this better than I do. Then I realised it, and felt terribly guilty, and apologetic. I devoted my time and energy towards becoming a better person. I’d like to think that I’ve made substantial progress, that I’ve eliminated maybe at least 60-70% of my undesirable qualities.

Some people are still never satisfied. Well, fuck you! I’m not going to grovel and jump through your hoops. I’m not even asking you to meet me halfway- 75/25 is okay with me. I have better things to do with my time than feel guilty and apologetic every single time somebody decides to get offended by me being myself. I’m already a much better person than I was a year ago, and I don’t think I’m being unreasonable. There’s a fine balance to be tread, and right now, I think I’m giving in just a little bit more then necessary.

I’m not going to return to being an egoistic arrogant fucker, but I’m not going to go out of my way to apologize for being myself either- especially when there’s obviously no real harm done.

I have a very low tolerance for recurring inconsistencies and stupid bullshit, and I call it out and rip it to shreds when I see it- even if you’re my friend. In fact, ESPECIALLY if you’re my friend. I’m not even doing it in public to embarrass you- if anybody asks me about any of my friends, I always try to find something nice to say- I do it in private, to help you realise what people might be thinking but not saying. I firmly believe that friends ought to be honest with one another.

If you can’t handle the heat, stay out of the kitchen!

I have to admit that it isn’t really anybody’s fault but my own that I’m sort of ranting right now. But hey, I haven’t ranted in a while, have I? I feel good now. I’ll make better decisions as I go along.

For those of you who’ve stuck with me all this while (even through my MegaDouche days- I don’t know how or why you did it), thank you, I love and appreciate y’all very much. ♥