Efficiency gives me pleasure, and inefficiency bothers me, often making me irritable and frustrated. This might sound like a strange idea, coming from me. “But Visa,” I hear you say, “you’re one of the most inefficient people I’ve ever met!” And you’re completely right. How is this possible? I’ve been thinking about this contradiction lately and I’ve come to think that it is probably my conscious mind that obsesses about efficiency, while my subconscious is entirely unconcerned. Efficiency and simplicity is often hard work, and the resulting frustration can be intense and difficult- so it’s often much easier to just give up and not care about it at all. Or something like that.

Anyway I’m not here to discuss the nature of efficiency and stuff like that, because that in itself would be inefficient. (Do you see what I just did there?) I want to spend less time and energy thinking and/or worrying about being efficient and more of it actually improving my actual efficiency.

It would be fairly accurate to say that I’ve acquired more than enough the knowledge, ideas, know-how, perspectives and other kinds of intellectual  ammunition to get things done. (I do not mean to say that I have all the knowledge I need, or even want- just that I have more than what is necessary to get things done.) It is possible that knowing too much actually hampers your effort. Again, talking about this only demonstrates and perpetuates it,  so I’ll cut it short.

I want to accomplish more with each day. I’m a lot more productive these days  than I’ve been for most of my life, yet still it doesn’t quite feel good enough. I suppose I’m more self-aware now than I was before, and I know that I can still do much better than this. I still spend too much time doing nothing.

Stay tuned!