i believe, or try to believe,
that if i try hard enough
and say it often enough
then i will be happy and content
and not so alone
(it’s so cold)
and that what i hold on to
is not slipping away
please no, don’t slip away

maybe i just need
to put in more effort
maybe i just need
a little more time to see things clearer
but when things look grey and you’re hoping for white
and you find out that it’s black after all
what do you do
how does it feel

i guess you move on
but when you’re not there yet
and you’re struggling
but not struggling at all

do you understand?

i really don’t want to think that you
don’t want it as badly as the rest of us do
though deep down i know it’s true
should i try and fix you?
i believe you would want to want it
i hope you do
and i hope you will, because i need it like nothing else