I just came up with a different chorus progression for Mocktail Love and I’m loving it! Brilliant. I think you’ll like it too.

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I have to let this out- I’m insecure about something as a musician and a performer.

When I catch awesome bands- Caracal, Postbox, Allura, Vertical Rush, Marchtwelve, Valentine’s Letter, Plushfools, Withered Tree and others live, I always get this sense of wonder at their intensity and their confidence.

To be honest, half the time I’m on stage, I’m terrified, confused and struggling to follow along or keep up. I have brilliant bandmates in Boon and Ahmad so maybe they cover up for me, but inside I can sometimes feel really lost.

I sometimes feel, when sharing a stage with such great performers, like I’m not quite doing justice to Armchair Critic, to my bandmates and to myself. I try not to think about it and I try my hardest not to let it show, but I still feel it sometimes and I think it’s affecting me a little.

I’m always worried that somebody’s going to notice that I’m shaking, that i’m fucking up and that they’re going to say that Armchair Critic doesn’t derserve to be where it is today, or something like that.

I don’t know. I suppose it’s silly and irrational. Somehow now that people actually listen and actually care, you sort of clam up, worrying that if you fuck up, they’re not going to forgive you. It’s not all fun and games anymore, and it’s terrifying.

I need to feel that X-factor feeling again soon before I fear I lose the ability to reproduce it, regularly and consistently.

Everybody sing, like it’s the last song you will ever sing- tell me, tell me do you feel the pressure now? – Born For This, Paramore