I find myself kinda grouchy about how little time and space i seem to have to do all the things i want. I want to research ancient cities… partially as part of a broader curiosity about how the world works, how civilisations work, scenes, progress, creativity and destruction… there’s so much i want to read but then i get tired<\/p>\n\n\n\n
grumpy and frustrated at how i’ve been sleeping so much, weird long hours. but I should be kinder to myself, I am still recovering from covid<\/p>\n\n\n\n
slightly tired of doing paragraphing and punctuation and whatnot, i just want to do a braindump<\/p>\n\n\n\n
it’s the first of november. did a bit of housecleaning which was satisfying. i’m a bit bored of tweeting. i want to be writing substack essays but i was stuck on that for a while, and I think I need to do more reading and riffing (which is why I’m here in my wordvomits) before I can write some good essays. maybe i should just log off twitter for a bit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nah, don’t think about what you don’t want to do, think about what you do<\/em> want to do. Focus on what you want to see more of. It’s 1am and I’m going to go to bed soon. What would I be happy to have done in my final minutes of the night? I would be happy to write and publish a wordvomit. So let’s do that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Met a friend a couple of days ago, always a good idea, great to be around optimistic, ambitious, idealistic people and talk openly and freely without having to caveat and be subtle and so on<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2731 <\/p>\n\n\n\n what’s on my mind right now?<\/p>\n\n\n\n would like the house to be cleaner \u2013 need to talk with S about this<\/p>\n\n\n\n would like to have more money \u2013 tidy up marketing blog, write a post, update, tweet about it<\/p>\n\n\n\n What do I want the money for? renovate the house. and I’d also like a suit, some nice clothes. throw out old clothes. <\/p>\n\n\n\n reshuffle my books \/ libraries to pick the books that i’m most excited about. <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2731 <\/p>\n\n\n\n The big\/main thing on my mind right now I guess… it’s the meta of all the other things, right. there’s a lot of stuff i want to do. but i have limited time and energy. yes, focus your time and energy on what you want to see more of, that’s 101. 201 would be to learn project management. someone said that the project management section of my book introspect is some of the densest, highest value… lemme quote it directly…<\/p>\n\n\n\n