Jailbreak. What are the things that I haven\u2019t done, that I want to do? What are the things that I couldn\u2019t do before, that I want to do? What are the ways in which I am limiting myself, my thinking, without even realising it?<\/p>\n
I suppose the place to start with this is patterns and habits. It\u2019s 12:28AM now. I slept at 430am last night. I want to start making it a habit to sleep and wake earlier. Or I say I do. That was a concern when I had to go to work. But I don\u2019t have to go to work any more. Should I just give up and be a night owl instead? But I don\u2019t like it all that much if I\u2019m not actually being productive; ie it doesn\u2019t make sense to me to stay up late playing video games. But that\u2019s not what\u2019s happening right now! Right now I\u2019m writing, and I\u2019m happy to keep going as long as the writing is decent.<\/p>\n
What else? I think the first principle here I should use is \u2013 rather than try to think my way to these answers, I should experiment my way to them. Because my thinking itself is symptomatic of the worldview I have. Experiments, on the other hand, yield experiences that I will then have to process and make sense of \u2013 and sometimes experience gives you something that you simply have to reckon with. What are some experiences that I\u2019ve had that have forced me to rethink and revisit things? Or simply some unsettling, surprising, different experiences?<\/p>\n
Here\u2019s what I know.<\/p>\n
Waking up early is a wonderful experience. Especially if you wake up before the sun rises, before the world wakes up, and you get yourself a coffee and you get to really slowly \u201ccome into the world\u201d. I don\u2019t do this a lot, I think, because deciding to go to bed early always feels a bit… like suicide…?<\/p>\n
Conversations with friends are always a pleasure. When I\u2019m living inside my own bubble for too long, I start to forget that other people exist \u2013 with different experiences, different priorities. I find myself thinking that this is actually one of the most interesting and important things to do, particularly as you get older and get more life experience. When you\u2019re really young, I think this stuff doesn\u2019t matter all that much, because you\u2019re mostly going to be meeting other young people, and young people who go to school all more or less have mostly similar experiences. (They do have different experiences at home, but usually kids aren\u2019t great at talking about this, and tend to end up associating with other kids from similar backgrounds, kids who are most like themselves).<\/p>\n
Meditation, or meditative deep-breathing, is a fantastic practice. It calms the mind. Here is where I usually say \u201cI don\u2019t do it enough\u201d, but I am choosing to let that go now. I do it when I want to do it. There have been times when doing it would probably have been helpful, when I was too distracted or overwhelmed to realize how distracted and overwhelmed I was.<\/p>\n
I am happy every single time I have travelled. It forces me to see new things with new eyes, and I am always grateful for the experience. I do not travel enough. There are many places on this planet that I would like to go to in my hopefully long lifetime. Lots of people I would like to meet. Lots of food I would like to try.<\/p>\n
Exercise \u2013 having your heart beat really hard, and your whole body just pounding. I have written multiple times about how good this feeling is, and I should maybe do a sort of compendium\/overview post of all the times I\u2019ve felt like this. Remember, post-workout endorphins are basically legal\/free opioids. I believe.<\/p>\n
Reading what you\u2019re genuinely interested in. I walked over to my bookshelf earlier this afternoon and was surprised to find that none of the books in my bookshelf were particularly interesting to me in the moment. I found myself thinking I\u2019d love to read me some Ta Nehesi-Coates, or Trevor Noah\u2019s biography, or some history. And hey, I\u2019d like to read my own autobiography. So maybe I should spend a few vomits doing that. Hell, I could spend a hundred vomits doing that. One about GameFAQs. One about SOFT. It will be good practice for talking about events, not just ideas. Yes, this is what I\u2019m going to do with my subsequent vomits, I think.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s my challenge right now. I need to move faster through my todo list items and be much, much quicker to delete things that I no longer find interesting or relevant. It\u2019s like that bookshelf moment again. I know what I would rather be reading. What would I most like to be watching on TV? Who would I most like to be meeting IRL? I need to revisit all of these questions and not feel compelled to follow up on past ideas simply because they\u2019re there.<\/p>\n
Jailbreak. How do we do it? Usually I\u2019d say, first we have to define the jail. But in this case, the tools of definition are themselves the jailer\u2019s tools. So in this case I think we just have to get as weird as we can, as random as we can, as quickly as we can. Violate our own patterns and see what happens.<\/p>\n
We should definitely be meeting and talking to more people. Thinking new thoughts. Going to new places. Shake things up. What\u2019s something that you\u2019ve always wanted to do that you haven\u2019t? There are bars and pubs near my house that I haven\u2019t been to yet, that I feel like I ought to have gone to by now. I should make a separate list of all of the things I feel like I ought to have done by now, and then consider doing them. Also, home improvement. My home still feels like a halfway house and this will not stand. And now… I gotta go to bed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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