0388 – I will write
There’s always something shitty about word vomits when I try to complete incomplete ones. There’s this looming sen
0387 – knocked down but bouncing back
I fell sick again. I fell pretty hard, too. It coincided with me pretty much overtraining for my fitness tests, and my arms we
0386 – soooo sleepy
Note to future self: I’m only writing this because I’m trying to keep a streak going. Will not even bother fixing
0385 – schedule revisions for learning through repetition
It’s my third day waking up early. I got more sleep last night than I did the previous two nights, so I’m more awa
0384 – express your values through planned actions
TLDR: Wake up early every day (so sleep early too) Review work daily (with accountability partner) So what’s my plan? I
0383 – review your principles regularly
TLDR: I want to minimize unnecessary fear, uncertainty and doubt I want to never feel sorry for myself I want the freedom to b
0382 – wake up earlier for a different life
Yesterday when me and my wife were at the airport sending my parents off, I had a brain wave at some point– I can’t re
0381 – fuck fear
When did I first start becoming afraid? I thought I was a confident person, I thought I had it all. There are loads of people
0380 – what I’m leaving behind
I have a lot of things I’m going to leave behind. I’m going to leave behind the bullshit that I don’t know w
0379 – I can
I’m feeling rather impatient. I find myself thinking that I should be done with this word vomit project already. But I&#
0378 – stop describing problems without solving them
Over and over again I think it’s a good idea to revisit everything from first principles. Start from what you know is tr
0377 – social groups and answers within
I want to think about the strange thing that happens when I fixate on any particular group of people and allow them to become
0376 – meditate and reflect to unlearn childish incompetence
TLDR: I’m still childish. I’ve been an adult for a couple of years now and it’s sometimes funny and sometime
0375 – body-wisdom and metaphorical car accidents
There’s a lot of information and wisdom in the body. I’m not a scientist, and I haven’t read all the literat
0374 – consider what’s changed and prepare for future change
Hot on the heels of the last vomit– so this is the first time in a few days that I’m writing two instead of one. I wan
0373 – revisiting the origin (of the word vomit project) – I want to be a better version of myself
I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of questions. My first question is to do with these vomits. Why am I writing these? It̵
0372 – no escaping the rehearsals
I’m not sure how I should feel about the amount of time I spend inside my head thinking about my past. I don’t want to be
0371 – a table of my own
(original title was “a space that I deserve”) I got a little distracted by the latest Google neural network visual
0370 – Do the loyalty missions and embody hard truths
Reaching that age where “maybe they’re older and know something I don’t” is starting to be replaced by
0369 – skin in the game and growing up
I’ve read a lot about procrastination and akrasia over the years but one thing I’ve always resisted doing is using
0368 – ugh fields
It’s 3:25am and I should be asleep but I’m not. Me and my wife seem to be having this weird silly habit where we s
0367 – history of my writing journey
I’ve always loved words. [1] I grew up reading books. My parents tried to be kind and loving to me, and one of the ways
0366 – “I was stuck but not anymore”, again
Alright, it’s writing time. It’s been about 6 days since I last published a vomit. I’ve taken a bit of time
0365 – stuff I’d like done
I was thinking to myself (as I’ve been doing all day), and it occurred to me that one thing that I really want is this:
0364 – tidy up your mental filing cabinets
I mentioned “mental filing cabinets” in a previous post, and I figure if I don’t write about them now, I pro
0363 – blood sugar 1
I haven’t done the reading yet, but I want to write about it first so that I can reflect on this after I’m better
0362 – latest cigarette thoughts
Thinking about cigarettes again. I went a long time without, around 6 months or so. Then I had a couple of circumstances where
0361 – strive to play the bigger games
I’m trying to make it a habit to start each day with a writing session, if possible. I’m sure I’ve said that
0360 – fuck feeling guilty about not appreciating life
In the previous post I tried to think about reconciling my multiple sets of thoughts and perspectives and approaches to differ
0359 – one coherent picture
In the previous post I tried to think about how brutal and indifferent nature is, and how it generates its own suffering in to
0358 – red in tooth and claw
A couple of days ago I found myself looking at some pretty graphic, grotseque images of nature in action. There was a baboon e
0357 – actually 25
Well, so I actually turn 25 today. Today is my 25th trip around the sun. I’ve been around for about 9100 days now, meani
0355 – punch the goddamn tires
Woke up, first at 7 and then again at 9, and been in bed since then. I’m going to write this vomit and then leave for wo
0354 – a day at home
Today has been delightfully irresponsible. I decided not to go to work today, I decided to take a “mental health dayR
0353 – discharge your strength, productively
I make a lot of strange decisions. Right now I’m deciding to write a word vomit in the middle of the day. Is this a bad
0352 – if drunk
I wonder what I would write if I were piss drunk and didn’t give a fuck about what I was writing about. Let me sort of t
0351 – quarter of a decade
A couple of vomits ago I wrote about “Be Dangerous”, a post that I read on Dave Trott’s blog. I tried to thi
0350 – 3 years from now
I wrote a vomit trigger titled “3 years from now…?” It was a question one of my colleagues asked me when we