0388 – I will write

There’s always something shitty about word vomits when I try to complete incomplete ones. There’s this looming sen

0387 – knocked down but bouncing back

I fell sick again. I fell pretty hard, too. It coincided with me pretty much overtraining for my fitness tests, and my arms we

0386 – soooo sleepy

Note to future self: I’m only writing this because I’m trying to keep a streak going. Will not even bother fixing

0385 – schedule revisions for learning through repetition

It’s my third day waking up early. I got more sleep last night than I did the previous two nights, so I’m more awa

0384 – express your values through planned actions

TLDR: Wake up early every day (so sleep early too) Review work daily (with accountability partner) So what’s my plan? I

0383 – review your principles regularly

TLDR: I want to minimize unnecessary fear, uncertainty and doubt I want to never feel sorry for myself I want the freedom to b

0382 – wake up earlier for a different life

Yesterday when me and my wife were at the airport sending my parents off, I had a brain wave at some point– I can’t re

0381 – fuck fear

When did I first start becoming afraid? I thought I was a confident person, I thought I had it all. There are loads of people

0380 – what I’m leaving behind

I have a lot of things I’m going to leave behind. I’m going to leave behind the bullshit that I don’t know w

0379 – I can

I’m feeling rather impatient. I find myself thinking that I should be done with this word vomit project already. But I&#

0378 – stop describing problems without solving them

Over and over again I think it’s a good idea to revisit everything from first principles. Start from what you know is tr

0377 – social groups and answers within

I want to think about the strange thing that happens when I fixate on any particular group of people and allow them to become

0376 – meditate and reflect to unlearn childish incompetence

TLDR: I’m still childish. I’ve been an adult for a couple of years now and it’s sometimes funny and sometime

0375 – body-wisdom and metaphorical car accidents

There’s a lot of information and wisdom in the body. I’m not a scientist, and I haven’t read all the literat

0374 – consider what’s changed and prepare for future change

Hot on the heels of the last vomit– so this is the first time in a few days that I’m writing two instead of one. I wan

0373 – revisiting the origin (of the word vomit project)

I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of questions. My first question is to do with these vomits. Why am I writing these? It̵

0372 – no escaping the rehearsals

I’m not sure how I should feel about the amount of time I spend inside my head thinking about my past. I don’t want to be

0371 – a space for myself that I deserve

I got a little distracted by the latest Google neural network visualization things. It’s so beautiful and compelling in

0370 – Do the loyalty missions and embody hard truths

Reaching that age where “maybe they’re older and know something I don’t” is starting to be replaced by

0369 – skin in the game and growing up

I’ve read a lot about procrastination and akrasia over the years but one thing I’ve always resisted doing is using

0368 – ugh fields

It’s 3:25am and I should be asleep but I’m not. Me and my wife seem to be having this weird silly habit where we s

0367 – history of my writing journey

I’ve always loved words. [1] I grew up reading books. My parents tried to be kind and loving to me, and one of the ways

0366 – “I was stuck but not anymore”, again

Alright, it’s writing time. It’s been about 6 days since I last published a vomit. I’ve taken a bit of time

0365 – stuff I’d like done

I was thinking to myself (as I’ve been doing all day), and it occurred to me that one thing that I really want is this:

0364 – tidy up your mental filing cabinets

I mentioned “mental filing cabinets” in a previous post, and I figure if I don’t write about them now, I pro

0363 – blood sugar 1

I haven’t done the reading yet, but I want to write about it first so that I can reflect on this after I’m better

0362 – latest cigarette thoughts

Thinking about cigarettes again. I went a long time without, around 6 months or so. Then I had a couple of circumstances where

0361 – strive to play the bigger games

I’m trying to make it a habit to start each day with a writing session, if possible. I’m sure I’ve said that

0360 – screw feeling guilty about not appreciating life

In the previous post I tried to think about reconciling my multiple sets of thoughts and perspectives and approaches to differ

0359 – one coherent picture

In the previous post I tried to think about how brutal and indifferent nature is, and how it generates its own suffering in to

0358 – red in tooth and claw

A couple of days ago I found myself looking at some pretty graphic, grotseque images of nature in action. There was a baboon e

0357 – actually 25

Well, so I actually turn 25 today. Today is my 25th trip around the sun. I’ve been around for about 9100 days now, meani

0356 – Less wrong and next steps

Quick note to self when I’m reading later: I started this vomit before I finished the last one. (And the one after that!

0355 – punch the goddamn tires

Woke up, first at 7 and then again at 9, and been in bed since then. I’m going to write this vomit and then leave for wo

0354 – a day at home

Today has been delightfully irresponsible. I decided not to go to work today, I decided to take a “mental health dayR

0353 – discharge your strength, productively

I make a lot of strange decisions. Right now I’m deciding to write a word vomit in the middle of the day. Is this a bad

0352 – if drunk

I wonder what I would write if I were piss drunk and didn’t give a fuck about what I was writing about. Let me sort of t

0351 – quarter of a decade

A couple of vomits ago I wrote about “Be Dangerous”, a post that I read on Dave Trott’s blog. I tried to thi

0350 – 3 years from now

I wrote a vomit trigger titled “3 years from now…?” It was a question one of my colleagues asked me when we